9/11/05 09:38 pm
Man what a day, gah i swear lol. So I get up this morning and get ready for church and I make it there just in time lol. I swear I really do like our college sunday school class its a lot of fun. Anywho church was good today, we watched some 9/11 remembrance video. Then one of the guys I used to play with in the youth band came and asked me if I would be interested in starting the band back and I was like yeah. It used to be me on bass, him on drums and our minister of music on guitar. Well the minister of music likes to talk a whole lot, and it just wasnt like a youth band with him in it. I mean he could sing great and is one of the best musicians I know.
However like I said we just wanted it to be youth. Well I played the last half of my junior year, my whole senior year and the first year of college, and then the end of last year I just kinda dropped outta the band and the youth services all together. I even kinda fell outta going to church all together. I just really strayed away from god. Well the past few days god has really been kind of leading me to get back on track and live my life for him. However now it seems like its even harder that I have been out in the worldy things instead of being with him like i should. I am struggling with thinking its so much more fun to be of the world than with god, however I know that if I follow him then he will work everything out for me.
I mean gah anyways, the reason why I quit going to youth is because its 7 - 12 and i am in my 2nd year of college lol. So you say go to your college minsitry, yeah well we dont have one. I tried starting one last year, but I dont feel led to teach. I just saw the need of us having a college ministry so I just started it, one night we had 21 people there. That is pretty good I think considering that we had little backing from the church, in fact the church wouldnt even associate us with the church. We have one lady who would cook for us and that was about the extent of help from the church.
Anyways so after a while it just fizzled out, I got burnt out and having to try and do everything. So like I said it just faded out. And now we hardly have any college age kids still going to church on sunday mornings. You hear adults and everyone talking about how when kids reach college they drop out of church. DUH I wanna smack em, think about it if there is nothing for them to come to, what do you expect them to come to, Its not rocket science.
So yeah anyways today at church that guy came up to me and said that the music ministers son is going to be playing guitar, and we got a girl that wants to sing and im gonna play bass and him on drums so I was like cool. So we planned to meet tonight after church and practice. Well we did and I was actually very suprised we sounded pretty good I thought. Practiced the song For Moments When I feel Faint by Relient K, and then some other praise songs we have known. Going to try and do a little bit more rock stuff now that its all youth.
Anyways here is a tough decision I had to make. I have been liking this girl that works at firehouse subs and well me and landon went in there to eat one night and then he apparently told codi *his gf* and they both knew I liked her so codi went by later that night after we had left and was like hey did you see my boyfriends friend. She was like yea, and so she asked if she owuld be interested in going out sometime with me. So she was like yea maybe, but I think she was dating someone at the time. Anyways landon called me today at like 4:30 and was like hey you wanna go eat at El Tap.
So I was like maybe who all is going, he is like me codi and ummm maybe that girl from firehouse subs. I was like oh cool, but umm I dont have any money so I dont really wanna go. Cuz I dont like for girls to have to pay for stuff. Anyways I was like maybe another time, and he was like yea maybe. So he calls me back at 6, and is like do you wanna watch a movie or something with us and her. I was like well I got church and then band practice afterwards. So I ended up keeping the plans I had made for band practice. Gah that was such a tough decision though, cuz I have liked her for a long time, however I just didnt feel like I should cancel on the band like that. Also I felt like I needed to be in church.
So when I got to church, they do a thing we like to do on sunday nights called pick a hymn. Its where we have a praise team of about 6 people and the pianist and people from the congregation yell out hymns and then the praise team sings them and everyone sings with them ya know. So the first song that someone calls out is How Great Thou Art which was a song that was sang at my grandmothers funeral, so yeah I of course started crying lol. I was trying to not let anyone see but you just cant help that ya know. So the whole service seemed like god was talking directly to me. Other hyms were like talking abotu there is powr in the blood and how god died for our sins, and just kepting bringing the point out that god has already forgiven us for our sins by dying on the cross.
So this gives me some relief ya know, and then at the end of the service I just felt like i should go to the altar so I did, and as soon as I knelt down I felt some hands being layed upon me and after I finished praying I look up to see who had been praying for me and there wasnt anyone there (*joking _ lol na it was though two people that I wouldnt have guessed would have been there for me, but they were and I really appreciated it. If yall will please pray for me as I try and get my life back on track for the lord.
Who knows maybe the lord will bless me with a nice christian girl for choosing not to go out with that girl and going to church lol. Anyways thats been about the extent of my day. So I guess I will ttyl. Oh I also been working on A bullet for juliets website, its brittanys boyfriends christian rock band. www.abulletforjuliet.com check it out and see if it works, brittany said it wasnt loading anything so let me know if it is or isnt.
Oh and I got the first season of friends today. I have a new fave show lol, actually its the only show Ive ever really watched. Its pretty good, I had never seen any of them before today lol. 
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